they never forget!!!

I always decide never to hit my son... donno how i can never manage my tempo and start loosing it when he acts like crazy instead of laughing at it.. I guess i am really sick.. I don't want him to hate me or start getting scared of me... he is so cute and beautiful and clever... I love him, I hate it when he tells his dad I hit him.. I guess i 'd better get cooler.. I need help.

I guess we r fine

After days an nights of tears and worries, we met the surgeon again... I was planning to press charges against him and his hospital, and there he is sure that the operation and the child are doing fine.. he could prove it and he was pretty confident cz he is the only one who does this operation in the whole gulf area....
"just put her into her splints and on her standing device, help her to heal"
do not put her under another surgery now...
poor child, a hip surgery is too aggressive, and she is too soft
nana I love you.

her song!

My nana loves music...
she memorises harmonies and few lyrics too...
she would sing half of "mama zamanha gayya" happily and proudly too and would require it... she is amazing when she sings it... I hope she would play any instrument in the future. she would sneak from her brother and play on the guitar before he discovers her and would take it from her to play it too.. just because he likes to play with anything she has in her hands.... my mom told me once that he is jealous from her... I was surprised.. how come ? I mean he is normal and has it all... our love , our care, the gifts the toys the outings.... but yet we over protect her from ... him...
u always need an outsider to discover what you are in

what happened

Could you imagine a surgeon's mistake that could cause your child a foot...
instead of seeing her walking better, I discovered that her operation was a total failure and I feel like blaming the doctor who was so sure he is the only one who operates this surgery. She started lately to love walking exercises, and now we will go mounthes back in her therapy.
I am sure she will make it through this too.. she is been through a lot before and she survived by God's will....
Did you read "the secret".. do u believe we could really attract stuff into our lives? can attract them to other's lives? can i attract health to her?
hope so

She is walking!!!

Yesterday night while i was trying to put my son to sleep, my sister shouted: is nana used to use the walker alone??
ALONE? no... never before.
just yesterday, she crawled to it, grabbed it and stood up and walked toward the door and asked to go out.. although it was 46 degree hot outside, we all went with her and supported her steps and took pictures and celebrated her courage...I guess I am gonna let her do it every day.. she will walk soon...

nana the fighter

Premature babies are no more a rare case... i never thought this incident could ever happen to me... but here I am delivering my baby girl, my first baby after 27 weeks of pregnancy.
she had to stay in specail care unit for sometime, with less than 1 kg and 30 cm and a quarter of a laung, she was fighting for her life and comfort too... she could turn her head from side to side and cry aloud to make her voice reach my heart... I was afraid to touch her... and later i knew i had to carress her more to relief her pain, adn give her love energy to grow... I was so confused and shoked, and I couldn't act at all to help her. I felt totally useless and week that time.
but not today...

movies

Till yesterday I thought my son do not know what does it mean to be frightened from tv.. till he has chosen to watch "lilo and stitch". one of his big collection of DVD's.but this movie is nothing like the dalmations or over the hedge or Ice age or finding nemo, the movies that made him a fan of animals... when lilo and stitch started.. he was frightened and wanted me to change the movie at once...
the same happened when he joined the family to watch night at the musuem... the skelleton dinosaue scared the hell out of him.. but then, he enjoyed a lot the dino following the "bone"... he woke up asking about it... then for the first time we watched the ad of the disney dinosaur movie in the nemo DVD, and decided he wants it...weeks back, before he discovers dinos, we used to forward the movie till the scenes he loves most....
he is animals fan, we have a zoo at home!
more will come.